Firefly20, 39

The more I learn the more I want to know! Hi, my name is Vicky, and I've decided to join after finding this site through a Google search. All I'm really looking for is just someone to talk to about all of these new things I'm learning and this new, much more pleasant, life journey I'm taking on. I've come to know myself so much more just this past year, and its a great feeling. I remember telling my friends that 2012 will be the year of love for me, and it turns out I was right. I didn't find that special someone, but I feel like the love I have for all of my family and friends, and myself for that matter, has grown so much this past year, which has been a somewhat strange, but completely awesome, experience. I just want to talk to people that are on a similar journey, just to see what their experience is like. I'm always talking to my family and friends about it, and they seem very happy for me, they just cant seem to relate, and that really sucks. I would love for them to feel what I feel, to stop just giving energy to the negative things happening in their lives and instead recognize all of the positive that is also happening. My whole life I've always felt that I've been in a permanent identity crisis, I've never felt like I belonged anywhere, I've never felt like I could just be me, except around my immediate family, and eventually it just became second nature to think about everything I said or did, to the point that I would think out a whole scenario of what people would think or say if I expressed what was on my mind, and I think that helped keep me in my "permanent" identity crisis. But this year has changed all that, I finally feel like I am finding out who I am, and it's been amazing. At 26 I am learning who I am, and its been an exciting and awesome thing to experience. I've finally come to terms with myself being an awkward person, but at the same time a very caring, and very positive person. I've learned that I can love so much stronger than I ever thought possible, and that is