Iamjosh, 35

I'm looking for the answers for the changes I'm undergoing. a metamorphosis of different sorts. I've lost my intersts, Nothing is perceived the same as it was. I need enlightenment in this, and counciling for some of the restoration I need. I hope I can also be of aid to others so my sponge can be drained thoroughly after soaking.
I once proclaimed that Christ is God and how much I love him. I can't say that anymore and u need to know why? I've under went monarch slavery mindcontrol and I need to know to what degree. Non religious spiritual info is good ad one of my alters is Christian programmed. Learning to meditate without being susceptible to third party entities would be nice too.